This month, I had a few financially challenging situations. I was stressing a lot and it even had an impact on my health. I frequently felt the Holy Spirit remind me that God is my source of provision - not my salary. There were a few times that I even felt the urge in my spirit to make a declaration that I trust God, that He is ‘first’ in my life and that I am dependent on Him. Later in the month, someone blessed me with R1000. I could see my Father's faithfulness and enjoy Him as the Provider in my life! In His presence, there is perfect provision. Let us live out our hope, trust and faith in and with His presence daily! Hallelujah!

I have been feeling a heaviness for a while now and haven’t been motivated to do a lot of things lately. The 'year-word' of the church is 'Hope', but I definitely didn’t feel full of hope, although I really desired it!

In the Creare Training Conference in July, there were some dance classes running. One of the main Scriptures in my class was Jeremiah 31:13. God promises joy - which was my greatest heart’s desire!

As the week went on, I decided to keep trusting God for this promise to be fulfilled in my life! It was hard to push beyond what I felt, or even beyond the lies that were holding me captive at that stage.

But He did! He used dancing to help me express everything I was feeling inside, and He came and restored His joy in me again! There are still days I wake up and doubt that I will find joy, but then I start to declare this Scripture and remind myself firstly that He Himself is my joy, and that He wants me to enjoy life with Him!

“Then the virgin will rejoice in the dance, and the young men and old, together. For I will turn their mourning into joy and will comfort them and make them rejoice after their sorrow!” - Jeremiah 31:13

In May, I was part of the tour team that Creare sent to Standerton and we were blessed to stay with one of our staff member's parents. I met a lady at their house who was working for them part time. Whenever she was there, I would go to greet her and ask how she was doing. One day I was able to minister and pray for her, and I felt that I had to pray for forgiveness in her heart. This lady shared how she believed her child was cursed at a young age, and since then, she was struggling with her child. Every time she goes home, neighbours complain that she is naughty, and it made her dread going home after work. We prayed again, and I asked her to pray and tell Father God what's on her heart. 3 weeks later, I received a voice note from this lady, thanking the Lord for using me in her life. She told me that since we prayed, there has been peace in her house and in her heart, and there is such a difference in her child's life!