Before I came to Creare I did not know how to worship God in church out of a place of relationship during praise and worship time. For some reason I felt numb, words would feel empty to me and I would not know how to receive, or give glory to God. I did not know what was missing or how to make it better, but I knew I had a desire to be filled by the Holy Spirit. 

In my time of being a full-time student at Creare I had a deepening in my relationship with the Lord. He brought a lot of healing into my life and I learned what it means to have a worship lifestyle in how I live. My relationship with God and understanding His love for me even more flowed into my worship, becoming a natural expression for me and not a pressurized thing that I had to do.

In fact, this breakthrough made it possible for me to become more comfortable in worshipping God through dancing. This in turn gave me more vocabulary for worship, that I could give back to Him!

I started playing drums last week, I knew it was gonna take a while for me to be able to keep a beat or simply read the notes, just didn't realise how difficult the journey was going to be. I got so frustrated at myself for not being able to do it fast enough, fact is I was comparing myself with the other drummers who had more time on the drums than I had. My focus was on technique, so I can just get the beat and move on to the next one. Today I finally realized that it was the wrong approach, so after making yet another mistake and getting angry at myself, I stopped and I decided to turn my attention towards God and worshiped Him with my playing and when I made a mistake, I had grace on myself which helped me to actually worship God. While playing I just experienced a sense of peace and joy fill me and I knew at that time, I don't need to play or be perfect in order to worship God, He accepts me just the way I am. Then I actually was able to get the rhythm and play the beat, now when I make a mistake, I'm able to accept it and learn from it without beating myself up.

We went on a tour to Mosselbay and Hartenbos area in 2022 and it was such a blessing to see how people were just touched by the outreaches and God’s presence. People’s faces just lit up when they were prayed for or received a prophetic word. I didn’t expect to see such a strong positive reaction, but God has blessed and surprised me through this tour and the overwhelming response. Another area where God really surprised me was in showing me the value of my own testimony. I had the opportunity to share my story with others and I could see how they were encouraged by how God changed my life. What you and I have lived through is not in vain and our testimonies can uplift and encourage others as they see Christ’s work in our lives.